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Thursday, June 30, 2005

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This week is a horrendous week for me.. Its my darkest moment in life and i will not forget it in my life. These incidents changed both Shun's and my life, our attitudes towards life and our focus in life.

My grandma passed away on sun morning at 10+ a.m. Was rather shock when my uncle called me to inform us.. Was stunned. My mother and brother visited her in hospital a day before she left. My mum couldn't accept the fact that she's gone cos she was well and active when they saw her the day before. Its so unpredictable, though we know that she's been ill and have been going in and out of the hospiatal for the past one year, her condition had been in a stable stage.. My family and I rushed back to Msia to attend the wake.. We onli realised that she passed away peacefully when we reached Msia.. She even had a full breakfast before she went for nap on Sun morning.. and the next moment she's gone.. forever gone.. Hearing that, we felt relieved. At least we knew that she passes away without worries and stuff.

I came back to Spore on sun nite cos my brother is having his test on mon. I accompanied him back and went back to Msia on Mon afternoon.

Something terribly bad happened again.. Shun's elder brother passed away in a traffic accident on Mon nite.. I'm devasted, i broke down.. How could this thing happened to someone ard me???? WHY? WHY? He's still a promising young man with ambitions and aspirations.. Why would God take away a 24 year old man just like that?? Shun was terrible sad and i knew that he needed me most then. But i can't be by his side when he needed me most.. I broke down when i received his msg.. His words pierced right into my heart. he really need me and yet i'm not there for him.. I'm feel really helpless and useless.. Its not that i do not want to be with him. It just that i can't.. even after i came back to spore, i cant attend his bro's wake, i can't even see Shun for seven days. You know, its the traditions and beliefs.. cos i will still be in the mourning stage so i can't attend any wake or wedding for the next 49 days.. i really can't explain my feelings then. I cried and cried feeling so helpess.. I'm his girlfriend and yet i can't be by his side when he is at the lowest point in his life. and at that moment, Shun couldn't accept the fact that i can't be by his side.. He replied me that he dun mind the clash thingy and all he wan is me by his side.. i really dun noe wat to do.. I'm sandwiched between him and my parents.. Lucky for me that Rouxin managed to help me.. I called her in my crying tone and told her abt my problems.. She understands fully and she told me that i can't attend Shun's bro wake at all cos it won't be good for me, for my grandma, for Shun's brother as well as all those involved. I knew it but Shun dun understand.. cos he dun believe in all these type of stuff.. It took him quite some time to understand and accept the fact.. hiaz.. Y is god doing all these things to us.. Hiaz..

After all these things, Shun and i realised the importance of our families. I promised him that i'll love him more than ever and we'll try to go out lesser and accompany his mum more.. His mum had already lost a son and we really hope tha she will feel better with Shun's company.. I'll try my best to visit his house more often (though i onli can do it after 49 days.. so sad..) and try to talk to his mum more often.. We've learnt to be more family focus and we have to be responsible for every actions that we do, every little things we do affect our family.. I realli hope his mum and family will be able to overcome it soon..

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